You know those moments, when you are suddenly, without notice, jerked abruptly into reality. Sometimes it is good, sometimes bad. (Fortunately in my life it has usually been good!) That moment of realization that you are in the hear and now and this is really happening and really your life. It's your life you are in, not an imagination or a dream or anything else other than simply... your reality.
I had one of these moments today, it came, of course without warning. I was standing in the front of our store, looking out at the chaos and cold of Regent Street, the people bustling by. In that moment there was a flash of realization. This is me, and this is my life. London is now my home and I am a local, not a tourist. What a weird feeling. Exciting, invigorating, energizing to realize that one of my dreams, something I never thought would happen, never thought possible, had become my life. Not only that, but I often find myself nearly pinching to make sure it is not a dream when I think about it all, when I wake up next to the amazing man I am privileged to call my husband, my best friend and my partner in crime. (ok, no real crime, but in all things fun I guess). I am sure it sounds weird, but there were several nights, especially once we had moved into our flat here in London, the first place and time that we were just us, that we had our space and it was all about us being a team, compromise, etc... that I would have these horrible nightmares that I had made some horrible mistake in life, was with someone else (usually I have no clue who this is, it is just a relationship that I am not happy in, and have settled in life) and I am in a panic, what did I do, why did I make this horrible decision! Then... I wake up, realize who it is laying next to me and am washed over with joy and peace of mind. It is at these times that I snuggle even closer to Alex, if that is possible at times.
Anyway, I love my life, I love my husband and I love that he makes me fearless to face the world. I know that we could not be where we are in life without the love and support of so many others. I am glad this is not a dream, that it is really my life.
I wish there were a "like" button to push for this post. I'd push it. I am glad that because of you, I now have family in London.
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