There are posts to come before this, but they haven't been finished... so it will just have to go in this order and my writing will have to come from the heart.
I have been on maternity leave, had friends in town and right when it was time to start back to work, my mom came to visit... she left today, and it is now time to begin "the rest of our lives." Now it is time to sort out how we will manage as a family all on our own, working, living and managing life. To say I am freaking out a bit, might be an understatement... to say I have absolutely no clue how it is all going to come together, but just have to trust my husband when he reassures me that it will is the truth. Many people out there do it, part of the problem in my mind is that my friends don't seem to, either they don't have kids, or they don't work, or for the lucky few (ok 1) she works from home/ road and in road I mean running, where she can take her little girl with her or set up "babysitting" for an hour or two.
I wouldn't change a thing for the world, I love Henry, I love Alex, I love the amazing beautiful place we live. It's amazing to have family in Australia and the US, maybe I would change that bit though, as it would be nice to have a parental "support" network here. People who would more than happily steal my smiley little boy away for the night to allow more date nights.
When I first started maternity leave, I wasn't sure how I would manage. We moved, I worked on setting up our house. Then of course our little man came along (a few days late) and we got to know each other while continuing to paint and make our house a home... and then there were the friends, visitors, mostly foreign. Then came my mom... and now, our "empty" house. I thought I would be so bored, that the time would drag. I've never been much for doing nothing, I like to be active and have stuff going on. I thought I would for sure go stir crazy, which I did a bit. The day we got home from the hospital I may have begged one of my friends to go out for a walk with me. I HAD to get outside, after being cooped up in the hospital for 2 whole days, that was more than enough! But friends filled the gaps, projects abounded and I ended up really enjoying the quality time with my little man.
We'll make it and never look back, I know... just some "teething issues" I'm sure... to begin... "the rest of our lives."
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